I actually have a lot of homeworks and been feeling so blueeeeeeee.

I'm doing my laporan biologi while writing this post so you better appreciate.

I bet you are laughing at the judul. I just can't think, really lmao.


So yeah how i feel being such a pathetic jomblo with that laporan biologi and rangkuman fisika and that galau songs?

extremely happy and hella sad at the same time.

me went to botani last thursday with my one and only babe chika. She said that she got an english examination on friday (me too actually) (but the teacher lied so no exam on friday yeay). we went to gramedia first, chika wanted to buy buku sbmptn and the english book. I was thinking about buying the sbmptn book but no money and it was the end of the month which was the time when my wallet started to cry bc i didnt feed it (sorry baby, you'll get your food tomorrow). BUT I FOUND THIS CUTE PINK MAP which i really really love and yea me so happy (no one cares)

ok so after we got everything we needed we decided to go to jeko bc chika wanted me to teach her.

we didn't really study doe. we talked about our love stories since two of our friends (not only them honestly, but a lot of our friends) already got their own love stories.

me and chika really happy being single! but sad at the same time. like even when you feel okay with your condition there must be a period where u feel so so so so so so lonely and pathetic.

(Btw i'll let you know about my friends soon. they are all so funny I can't even. we are going to make fun yet weird videos soon).

if we talk about the physical appearance, me isn't good at it. really.
but my friends are good at it (Including you chika, if u're reading this).
so for now, me just being nice to everyone. like everyone!
(sometimes it's so so hard to get rid all of the bad thoughts and i hate it so much)

i feel awkward easily. become an awkward girl easily. do something strange (without me even realizing) easily and sometimes it's so hard to control. y'all feel me?


Talking about having a date with someone, sometimes i think it's just so 'aneh' for me to have a date with someone like dude i ain't that pretty and what if u see someone prettier than me while we r walking and then suddenly u pretend that u need to pee so u go to the toilet but do not come back for an hour like damn, i feel so anxious.

oh, one of the reasons why i don't want to date a boy (untuk saat ini) is that i haven't found the right boy. I mean, I've seen so many types of boys and it makes me sad like where's the nice oneeee.

the one that's really niceEEE and SMarTT, and cutEEE, and do not have a lot of girls.

do not have a lot of girls.

'not all the boys kaya gt kok dee'

indeed, but it's hard to find.

so for all the girls who have found that type of boys, congratulation! jangan nanti lo nya yang nakal.


BTW BTW BTW ME GONNA MAKE VIDEOS WITH MY BABESSSSS. gue kayanya bakal jarang muncul bc ga pede.

pede deng.
pedein.

btw thank you for reading this unimportant post (gonna laugh about it kali ya nanti gue) but that's okaay.

see u on my next post.
maaf
maaf
maaf
maaf.

- hyd
ig:haydeelaylaa (see my face)