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       People must have been through everything, ups and downs. Boys and girls they all are the same. They have feelings too and sometimes feel bad about themselves. whether it's about their lives, bodies, friends, who knows?

Most of teenagers these days feeling unconfident about themselves. Me, honestly never feel confident about myself and my body. Never believe in myself.  I was messed up. i didn't have many close friends. well i did but i kept feeling that they wanted something from me. Sometimes, i still do feel like that. All i do is complaining about my body, about my look, why am i not as pretty as them, as cool and as good or as smart as them. I'm still wondering why.

Sometimes, seeing beautiful people laughing with their friends, or just walking, or just tying hair. hurts...
like, I'm asking myself
'how could they look beautiful even when they just do some little things like that'
then I imagine myself doing such a thing and feel sorry for the people around me who have seen me laughing or smiling or walking because i know how bad i look.
I always feel sad. I still do.

But now I'm in 12th grade! i have to grow up, i must know where to put myself in. If i keep feeling sad, pathetic, miserable, I couldn't reach all of my dreams.

So I will try to do these things that I'll tell you about.







Percaya Diri

Super duper harus percaya diri. Kita harus tau selagi kita engga ngelakuin kesalahan, pd aja. Jangan pernah ngerasa malu untuk mencoba atau melakukan hal-hal baru. Never feel ashamed of yourself! as long as you are in a right track, there's no need to be worry about. Kita, kalau udah engga pede pasti males deh bc I am. Gue selalu ngerasa males, males hidup, males pergi, males ketemu temen-temen gue kalau gue udah ngerasa gaenak sama diri gue sendiri which is bad. Tapi ya, my mum keep encouraging me to feel confident about myself asal ga ke pedean. Karena kunci sukses salah satunya pede. Kalau kita pede, aura kita keluar (that's what she said).


Harus Selalu Senang

Yes. my mum juga menyuruh gue buat terus-terusan senang so that I won't make a horrible face because i always do. I can't even control my face and expression though. Jadi mama selalu menyuruh gue untuk senang. Ya senangin aja. Engga di bawa susah, lakuin hal yang bikin lo seneng. Obrak abrik baju? boleh atau bersihin kamar? boleh. OOH atau nonton drama korea (kaya gue)? boleh...
Ngayal? boleh banget. Pokoknya lo harus senang, harus punya semangat dan tujuan di masa depan!


Tulis Rencana di Masa Depan

Semua orang punya tujuan masing-masing. Semua orang punya mimpi yang pengen di capai. They probably will do everything positively to achieve it because what's the point of living if you aren't brave enough to reach your dreams. Tulis semua rencana atau mimpi lo di kertas terus selalu lo bawa atau lo tempel depan kaca jadi setiap ngaca lo selalu inget mimpi lo so that you feel happy to live your life.


Ignore the People

Disini maksud gue adalah ignore orang-orang yang bikin lo sedih. Yang mengganggu kelangsungan hidup lo. Sebenernya semuanya bersumber dari omongan mereka yang gabisa mereka tahan. Semua orang tukang nge-judge kok. Gue juga kadang. Cuman ada beberapa orang yang emang sampe ngatain di depan lo. Jangan sedih, take it as a criticsm so that you can fix yourself and become a better person.




Right, I hope after reading this you'll realize how important you are.
Jadi jangan sedih dan tetap semangat!

-hyd

Yea, I'm spending my time watching korean dramas because they won't hurt you, right?
I was not interested in watching korean dramas, I wasn't into it but now I looooooooooooveeeeee watching it. Berawal dari Descendants of the sun lalu berlanjut lah ke drama-drama yang lain, and yes! I extremely enjoy watching korean dramas.


Ok, here are the dramas that I've watched and enjoyed very much.



Descendants of The Sun

As you know, Drama ini lagi booming banget kan kemaren-kemaren. Like, everyone is watching it. Yang tadinya ga nonton drama-drama gitu jd nonton gitu (like meh). Tapi menurut gue ini drama beda sih after watching several dramas. Kalau drama lain kan ya gajauh-jauh cowo-cewe-suka-cowonya kaya-keluarganya ga setuju atau ga cowo-profesinya hebat gitu-ketemu ini cewe-cewenya ngeselin-berantem-cinta. (I'm wondering why do i keep watching korean dramas when i know that the plots are the same lol).
Ok, jadi ini tentang cerita cinta dokter sama tentara gitu ya. Mereka ketemu di rumah sakit lalu deket tapi karena si tentaranya ini suka ada tugas ke luar negeri dan the girl can't stand the pain, kok the pain hm.. she seems can't do a long distance relationship gitu deh kayanya ya mereka memutuskan untuk mengakhiri hubungan. Tapi.......... tiba-tiba cewenya di tugasin ke luar negeri gitu juga sama team-teamnya and DANK!! ketemu lagi sama cowonya:):):):):). Nah, are you curious about the drama right now? then watch it.

Main Casts:
Song Joong-Ki
Song Hye-Kyo
Kim Ji-Won
Jin Goo

This drama made me couldn't sleep at night after watching this. No, it was not because it was terrifying. But because it was so cute, so lovely, so baper ok. The lead actress is so cute and so is the lead actor. Ya walau emang chemistry nya kurang ya soalnya disini cewenya kaya introvert-kalem gitu but yea you can't expect too much from korean drama lol. Jadi ini tentang chef-pemilik restoran yang jatuh cinta sama asistennya sendiri. Awalnya mereka sebel-sebelan gitu sih (cowonya sih) kalau cewenya itu kaya has a low self-esteem and doesn't have any close friends but the special thing that she has, dia bisa liat hantu/arwah/apalah itu. Nah ada arwah yang matinya virgin dan dia pengen membalaskan dendam virginnya itu dengan cara masuk ke tubuh manusia, yea masuklah dia ke tubuh si cewe ini. without this ghost, she's just a withdrawn girl who always causes problems tapi kalau udah di rasuki hantunya, dia jadi aggressive. OK U MUST WATCH THIS TOO OK.

Main Casts:
Park Bo-young
Jo Jung-suk
Kim Seul-gie

So as you can see from the 'About me' box right there, My name is Haydee Layla Safira. I was born in Medan, August 4 1999. I live in Bogor and haven't had so many friends here because I moved here a year ago so yea I haven't made any friends but I'm looking forward to making more friends here. I love meeting new people, I love making friends so if you see this and thinking about getting know me just talk to me.

I'm a girl who is busy
lol no.

Ok, I had a blog when i was in 5th grade but didn't develop my blog because man, I was still a kid. Then I switched to tumblr because it seemed fun and it was so easy to use (it is). I still have my tumblr and still manage the blog so if you're curious about my other blog (tumblr) you can click 'tumblr' on the sidebar. I never write anything there, Tumblr (for me) is only for pictures of everything that I like. For pictures that I haven't seen before.

So yeah, since my dad told me that I should've done something productive since I've got everything that I needed I decided to make this blog. I don't know if it's productive or not but yea at least I'm trying.
I'll do some reviews, I'll share some stories, Or maybe I'm just gonna make blank posts.
jk.

So, see ya!

-hyd