People must have been through everything, ups and downs. Boys and girls they all are the same. They have feelings too and sometimes feel bad about themselves. whether it's about their lives, bodies, friends, who knows?

Most of teenagers these days feeling unconfident about themselves. Me, honestly never feel confident about myself and my body. Never believe in myself.  I was messed up. i didn't have many close friends. well i did but i kept feeling that they wanted something from me. Sometimes, i still do feel like that. All i do is complaining about my body, about my look, why am i not as pretty as them, as cool and as good or as smart as them. I'm still wondering why.

Sometimes, seeing beautiful people laughing with their friends, or just walking, or just tying hair. hurts...
like, I'm asking myself
'how could they look beautiful even when they just do some little things like that'
then I imagine myself doing such a thing and feel sorry for the people around me who have seen me laughing or smiling or walking because i know how bad i look.
I always feel sad. I still do.

But now I'm in 12th grade! i have to grow up, i must know where to put myself in. If i keep feeling sad, pathetic, miserable, I couldn't reach all of my dreams.

So I will try to do these things that I'll tell you about.

Percaya Diri

Super duper harus percaya diri. Kita harus tau selagi kita engga ngelakuin kesalahan, pd aja. Jangan pernah ngerasa malu untuk mencoba atau melakukan hal-hal baru. Never feel ashamed of yourself! as long as you are in a right track, there's no need to be worry about. Kita, kalau udah engga pede pasti males deh bc I am. Gue selalu ngerasa males, males hidup, males pergi, males ketemu temen-temen gue kalau gue udah ngerasa gaenak sama diri gue sendiri which is bad. Tapi ya, my mum keep encouraging me to feel confident about myself asal ga ke pedean. Karena kunci sukses salah satunya pede. Kalau kita pede, aura kita keluar (that's what she said).


Harus Selalu Senang

Yes. my mum juga menyuruh gue buat terus-terusan senang so that I won't make a horrible face because i always do. I can't even control my face and expression though. Jadi mama selalu menyuruh gue untuk senang. Ya senangin aja. Engga di bawa susah, lakuin hal yang bikin lo seneng. Obrak abrik baju? boleh atau bersihin kamar? boleh. OOH atau nonton drama korea (kaya gue)? boleh...
Ngayal? boleh banget. Pokoknya lo harus senang, harus punya semangat dan tujuan di masa depan!


Tulis Rencana di Masa Depan

Semua orang punya tujuan masing-masing. Semua orang punya mimpi yang pengen di capai. They probably will do everything positively to achieve it because what's the point of living if you aren't brave enough to reach your dreams. Tulis semua rencana atau mimpi lo di kertas terus selalu lo bawa atau lo tempel depan kaca jadi setiap ngaca lo selalu inget mimpi lo so that you feel happy to live your life.


Ignore the People

Disini maksud gue adalah ignore orang-orang yang bikin lo sedih. Yang mengganggu kelangsungan hidup lo. Sebenernya semuanya bersumber dari omongan mereka yang gabisa mereka tahan. Semua orang tukang nge-judge kok. Gue juga kadang. Cuman ada beberapa orang yang emang sampe ngatain di depan lo. Jangan sedih, take it as a criticsm so that you can fix yourself and become a better person.




Right, I hope after reading this you'll realize how important you are.
Jadi jangan sedih dan tetap semangat!

-hyd